I'm hurting i know....but i don't know why...i thought i'm okay already until leman told me he saw u...the mix feeling just comes back..i know its not the feelings that i used to have.....cuz there's something more....its hatred. I hate u....u geddit? Yes yes i just hate u....but i can't bear to hate u...everytime i walk past the interchange and my house memories just keep coming back...by all means i can go back to the playground if i want but i know u won't be there anymore...everything's changed in such a short time...I thought i was okay...everybody tot i'm okay....but i noe i'm not...i'm not letting it go easy this time...i know that...cuz everything just come so abruptly....i need time to absorb everything...u took my heart away but u tore it apart...i know exactly how that feels now...i hate u for throwing everything at me so abruptly....u came into my life and u disrupt it...and now i need sometime to go back to the life i once loved so much...I can't cry anymore...would i feel better if i cry them out? Yesh....but no tears are welling up anymore....maybe they've already dried up...maybe i forgot how cuz i'm numb to all feelings yesh...and i dare to say everything's changed cuz of u....I hate u....i really hate u....and i know u won't give a damn about it......u're just so irresponsible...yesh that's the word... 