It's not heavy anymore cuz its aching like mad.... i really hope i won't think so much....cuz the feeling is like so unbearable can......its painful...Couldn't sleep so i picked up the phone and msg him ' hey i got a favour to ask of u ... reply me when u wake up k '. Know what favour i wanna ask? Think i'll reply ' i'm sorry if i'm asking abit too much from u....but next time can pls tell me where u going anot? I don't like the feeling of not knowing where my bf is going......' i'm not trying to control u or wad lah..u can't be controlled anyway...but i tot yeah....that's the least u can do eh....just a msg or a call is enough...i don't ask for much...Yeah, that's wad i wanna reply....one of e reasons my heart's aching? Cuz i keep thinking of wad u said in the past....den it jus started snowballing from there.I haven't had this heartache feeling in a long while....felt as if it's gonna burst hahaha...and yeah i'm working tomorrow which makes it worse....Last time u will msg me even if u're with ur frens selling ice cream k....what's up now? Hahaha...i don't know...i wanted to cry lah....but it just wouldn't come out.......and it's aching like mad......can't seem to breathe.....tell me man.....tell me nothing's wrong.....=DI know i'm being funny lah...if u dun care u wouldn't bring me to the doctor...and now here i am thinking of all this....i know i know...can't help it lah....*smilesI kept thinking about wad u said last time about u don't wanna understand me anymore.....called me a liar and everything....i know u said that in the pique of the moment...is it? Never mind....hurt me whichever way u wan =D i still didn't change my mind...but i wanna know why u didnt talk to me when u're with ur frens yesterday....or isit i didnt tok to u? Hmmm....okok both at fault...Deleted my blog link from my friendster so i hope u won't see my blog =D i don't want u to think i'm being unreasonable...i know i said i don't wanna worry about the unexpected but my mind is full of uncertainties....everything....all i can do is rant about it in my blog.....or should i tell u personally? Then it'll be like i wanna pick a quarrel with ur or something...or i'll be ur burden lo..do u treat ur ex gfs lydat oso? I don't wanna ask so much cuz i dun wanna be a burden...and i dun wanna dig up ur past...since u didnt tell me anything...ya so i shouldn't ask....I'm feeling very puzzled when i wanna ask u things cuz u once said don' give u too much freedom...ya if i ask u to msg me where u going isit too much for u? I'm thinking this way k...i don't like forcing to do things u don't like ( ya since u didnt do it it can oso mean u dun like rite? ) but i wanna noe...see the mix feelings there? Ya and i'm afraid u regretted after u started to know me.....hahahaa...stupid i know....but it's still has a certain percentage of coming true....=D starting to lose interest in me? like me less than before? ya....can come true rite...i don't rule out those possibilities =D cuz mayb one day i will feel that way oso... 