Pardon me for ranting on my blog non-stop tonight.....cuz if i keep it inside me i think i'll really explode ( i having my extreme mood swings nowadays ) so yeah i get bloody pissed off easily.It's not pleasant to get shout at by you ok...that's the reason why i'm like a metres away from you...i'm protecting myself from getting hurt by u...u didn't my mood changes did u? I'm not grumbling here lah huh...i'm just writing down what i want. I'm like so damn bloody expressionless today lah. U don't bothered to ask why........u don't care do u? -_-'''Where's the shoulder i needed on a day like this....where's the sms to ask me how was my day? I'm not asking to you to do all that....i don't know....i really don't know......but i keep thinking u're giving my cold shoulders and everything.....i don't want everything to end before i can put my heart into it get it???? I won't be able to take it lying down cuz it ended before it has even started. U always told me u care about me....actions speakers louder than words my dear....I can't....i can't forget the way you talked to me today...and everyday. Enough ranting on about my relationship lah huh....now its my friendship. I really wanna scream in ur face and tell u I DIDN'T PURPOSELY ASK LING TO GO KENNETH HOUSE WITH ME!! I WANTED TO GO ON MY OWN ACCORD!!!! CUZ I TOT I WAS MEETING MY FRIEND LATER AND TOT I WILL STOP BY AT HIS HOUSE TO VISIT!! WHAT THE BLOODY HELL ARE U THINKING THAT ME AND LING GO BAI NIAN WITHOUT U? I ASK LING WHERE WERE U WHEN I STEPPED INTO KENNETH'S HOUSE OKAY! BELIEVE IT OR NOT ITS UP TO U BUT I DEFINITELY WANTED TO GO UR HOUSE. I'm like so damn bloody pissed off when i put down the phone can! Why do u have to have sucha big reaction when we wanna go ur house and visit? What the hell is wrong with that. If u're thinking i went to ling's house before i went to kenneth's den ur damn bloody wrong lah huh. Let me repeat wad i said.........i went there cuz its a last min decision and i stayed there till night cuz i kinda got pang seh by my friends lah....HAPPY?! So damn bloody pissed off lah....and only ling and kenneth was there to hear me to tell then what's going on. U didn't gimme a chance to explain why i was there and went jumping to conclusion. What the fuck are u thinking about ?!I'm so damn bloody pissed off right now with alot of things lah....and noone's here to hear me out but my blog. Now all of u should noe why i actually have a blog....cuz noone cares what i'm thinking inside my little brain...i feel that my sotong's turning hot and cold and now my sister's pissed off cuz she tot i went visiting without her. Everything's so so wrong....noone actually care at the end of the story...noone...noone bothered to ask me what actually happen and even if i wanted to say....i don't know how to begin...I need a shoulder seriously...i need someone to be there so i can pour out my woes to him...I don't know u...i really don't...cuz my instincts no longer accurate when i use them on u...i don't know what's going on in ur mind.....i don't know.....Can i just break down and cry? Once i start i won't stop, without anyone to comfort me....it'll be much worse lah can!!!! Noone cares man....noone cares......i was thinking of it when i'm in the bus.....noone cares at the end of the story...I'm so bloody pissed off, i'm heartbroken, i'm torn apart by different emotions ( i'm not suffering from depression lah! )Know why i like to say i won't think so much...cuz if i start thinking i wont stop lah....U don't bother about me....u don't....ur actions doesn't say so...u make me wanna stay away from u cuz u're too difficult to figure out...i'm like a compass just that e needle is not pointing the North and South......its moving in different directions to figure out which is e right one....i'm that....i'm confused......very confused......-_-''' If u think i'm staying away from u den u're wrong....ur reactions just make me stay away from u.....mayb i'm thinking too much...but that's what i feel......... 